2007 — endings and beginnings
30 December 2007
If 2006 was my year of karmic clearances, 2007 must be said to be my year of multiple endings and new beginnings — the chalk markings on the board are being rubbed away but haven’t yet been cleaned off or written over.
Eric Francis described the theme for 2007 as the ‘Spiral Door’, a metaphor alluding in part to the influence of the Galactic Core on the year’s astrology. Metaphysically speaking, the spiral door is also the vortex through which we must leap, like Alice down the rabbit-hole, and trust what’s to come on the other side. As Francis put it:
Perhaps the real issue is psychological, what we do with so much change, in the midst of so much change, which amounts to our whole way of perceiving the world being turned upside-down. Are we willing to embrace the total unfamiliarity that would subsume us, if we admitted the feeling, and the reality that creates it? Do we feel equipped to do so? What if we are not? Then what do we do? Go back to sleep, or wake up and help one another live? Or do we watch it all like the video game we wish it was? Do you ever worry how many people think it’s all such a cool illusion? Does it bug you how many people are waiting for “Jesus to come back”?
In other words, we may not get what we want, but maybe the lesson is to learn to want what we get.
As such, I’ve long disavowed the value of new years’ resolutions. The way I see it, resolutions shouldn’t be about wishfulness — what you would like to do if you were a ‘better’ person — projected onto an imaginary future; much more useful to consider and build on lessons learnt in the past that you acknowledge now. These are a few of mine for the past 12 months.
- Do not underestimate the power of self-belief;
- Do not flatter your ego that you can somehow ‘fix’ (what you see as) someone else’s problems (Jundo Cohen’s ‘Broken Buddhas’ post helped focus this idea quite a bit);
- Do not take other people’s neuroses personally (they rarely have anything to do with you);
- Do not be afraid to ask — the worst answer can only be ‘no’ (shyness, reticence, and misplaced embarrassment, someone said to me, are ego manifestations, too).
All the above, it goes without saying, are worthless if they are not also tempered with clarity, self-awareness, and reason.
It’s been a long while since I looked back on a year with some satisfaction, and forward to the new one with anticipation. My spiral door has marked the close of a twelve-year cycle and is about to spin into the next one.
Happy Old Year. I won’t miss you but I’ll always remember you.